Womb Power!
The energy within our wombs is primal and raw and fiery. It’s the force of a mother bear protecting her young or a warrior woman protecting her sacred lands. Under millennia of patriarchy many women have disconnected from this power and have become sanitised, civilised, ‘nice girls’ who prioritise keeping the peace over expressing their truth. And these ingrained behavioural patterns go so deep that the spiritual ego can find new ways to continue them... for example, by telling us that we are not ‘evolved enough’ if we don’t accept everything that comes into our awareness with grace and love.
Recently the universe has been giving me many opportunities to explore this and claim more of my innate wild power. Something will happen that is out of alignment with my truth and does not resonate with me. I have the chance to choose whether to follow the socially acceptable path of just ignoring/denying the problem and continuing without causing a fuss. Or, to stand up for what feels true for me.
I have also been observing a mental story which says ‘the most evolved behaviour would be to meet this person who is triggering me with total compassion and send them love and healing during the interaction, not run away from it’. And perhaps one day I will get to the point where this comes naturally and I can stay in the difficult situation as a beacon of light... but at the moment, in times of distress or conflict my nervous system still usually gets very fired up and then I cannot serve anyone else in that moment. Given that, it is most helpful to honour my own truth and boundaries and say a very emphatic ‘NO’ to the situation, regardless of how socially acceptable my action is and how it might trigger another person. Whether that’s walking out of a workshop, telling a masseuse I don’t like her rough touch and want to change therapists, or telling a Facebook acquaintance to stop bombarding me with private messages, it’s all the same lesson about taking care of myself and honouring my own boundaries, kindly but very firmly.
It’s not possible to say ‘yes’ to everything in this world of enormous contrast. We can try to avoid judgement about a certain thing and appreciate it as just another evolving part of this game of life, but that doesn’t mean that we have to invite it into our energetic field. Sometimes a very strong NO is necessary.
16 July 2020
