Choosing to thrive, not survive
I have just moved to the Canary Islands, and it feels soooooo good. This is part of my journey with worthiness: feeling worthy to thrive, even in these times when the collective programming is so strongly trying to push us into a survival mode founded on fear and lack.
I arrived back in the UK in September with a story that I needed to spread love and light there. And yes, the U.K. could use a lot of love and light. But almost from the beginning it felt like I was slipping into survival mode... my partner and I were aware of winter looming and were thinking of ways that we could avoid being cold, avoid being wet, avoid spending our savings, avoid being isolated, avoid being locked down in a tiny apartment, avoid depending too much on the mainstream systems, avoid inconveniencing my lovely family by showing up on their doorstep too regularly! Then I realised that if I choose a lifestyle that keeps my attention focused on just staying warm and energised through the dark days, that really will not serve me or anyone else.
So I gave myself permission to focus on what I DO want and what would help me feel expansive. Suddenly the whole process of deciding where to base ourselves became simple... I need sunshine! When I was younger I was aware that I didn’t enjoy winter, but as I have got older I understand that the need for light is such a fundamental requirement for me... it is spiritual sustenance for my whole being.
I want to be somewhere sunny, warm and safe, with community and trees. 
I checked online for the warmest place in Europe, which is the Canary Islands. I searched for ‘conscious communities Canary Islands’ and my whole body was a YES to the first one I found. I observed and loved the part of myself who wants to judge me for ‘running away’ from the challenges in the U.K. and for being unable to shine equally brightly in all external circumstances. I now choose to be kind to myself; taking care of myself is like putting on my own oxygen mask first.
I checked online for the warmest place in Europe, which is the Canary Islands. I searched for ‘conscious communities Canary Islands’ and my whole body was a YES to the first one I found. I observed and loved the part of myself who wants to judge me for ‘running away’ from the challenges in the U.K. and for being unable to shine equally brightly in all external circumstances. I now choose to be kind to myself; taking care of myself is like putting on my own oxygen mask first.So here I am, ready to thrive and serve from here. My whole being expanded yesterday as the plane was landing and I felt the energy of these beautiful islands for the first time. Then a mini rainbow appeared over the airport, which felt like a blessing. And maybe this will be the place to put down longer-term roots as well... will see what the universe brings.
What do you need in order to thrive? Can you give yourself permission to choose more of that? You are SO worthy of it!
24 October 2020
